I was trying to get out of the kitchen while people were cooling and I nearly walked into one of the couples who happened to be kissing right on the other side of the wall and one of the girls laughed and pointed out that I “saw them kissing and turned the other way” Like no shit I turned the other way I didn’t want to walk right between them! They were blocking the doorway! I’m fully aware that I’m single and lonely and jealous of my friends you don’t have to point it out to everyone. And then the couple was apologizing for “grossing me out”
I don’t know how to feel about the fact that I’m bothered that literally every one of my current friends is in a relationship. I was at a dinner with them to celebrate the last day before classes and one of them called me “the seventh wheel”. The other six of them are all couples. I just sat there awkwardly.
I wonder if I will be able to meet somebody special. It just feels like I don’t know anybody. I can hardly make friends, much less progress to being more than friends. I’ve joined a group of students who share some of my exact interests but it still feels like I don’t have anything in common with them.